|Swami Veda Bharati|
I had quite a few questions but while I was at the ashram I realized that he was too busy and that if he would have any time to meet me he wouldn't be able to answer all my questions. So I tried to shorten my list until it became just four questions.
Meeting Swami Veda Bharati
Finally at the end of one of his lectures he said "Marco, I will meet you tomorrow at 5pm". I got excited, I thought I would have the time to talk with him and ask at least three questions, but later I realized that I wouldn't be alone with him, I would be together with four other ashram guests.
So the moment came. We waited for a few minutes sitting silently next to his couch. He came out from his office and greeted as. He sat is in his couch and started talking with us, just making conversation, asking about ourselves, how we find the ashram, how was are stay and so on. Finally he said "so, do you have any questions for me?". I looked at the other guests and nobody seemed to have any questions so I quickly replied "Oh.. so many questions". He smile at me and said:
"Questions are not answered. They are resolved. Imagine somebody sitting here looking at my phone and thinking - should I steal Swami's mobile phone or not? -. You wouldn't make that question to yourself, you are not at that level. The question doesn't arises in your mind, but it does arises in the mind of that person. In the same way the questions that are currently in your mind might seem relevant to you now, but when you make progress in your spiritual practice little by little all those questions will be resolved, you just need to keep up with your sadhana (spiritual practice)".Later smiling he said, "but you can make me at least one question". Great! I thought. Since I was not alone with him I chose the most impersonal question that I had, so I asked:
"How can we practice meditation while we are engaged in a mental activity, for instance using our minds creatively? (or in other words: how can we be present here and now while thinking intensively at the same time?)" and I quoted what he had said the day before. "Yesterday you mentioned that you could do your meditation while at the same time reading your e-mails from your many e-mail accounts. How can we do that?"
He answered me with another question: "do you have any thoughts while you are driving?". "Oh yeah, many!" I answered. He continued "but you are still driving, aware of the road and aware of the traffic. It Is just a matter of having one thought, your mantra, while performing any action. While walking, instead of thinking many thoughts just think one thought and be aware of you walking; while eating be aware of you eating and think only about your mantra."
Then I was thinking to myself "but then I'm not using my mind, I'm just performing an action with my body, it is easier to practice meditation or being present in that situation (not that I can do it) than when you are performing an action with your mind". Then, like if he would have listened to my thoughts he said "but meditating while reading your mails is a very advanced practice, not something that you can learn in a day, a month or even a year. It requires lots of practice."
I was a bit confused with his answer, didn't really get it at that moment, but after the meeting I talked with one of the guys who was also in the meeting. We shared our views and it kind of gave us both more clarity. I concluded that we need to practice meditation or being aware and present while performing physical actions like eating or walking and by constant and regular practice that awareness will become a second nature, just like driving. When we reach that stage we would be able to perform mental actions or being mentally engaged in any particular subject while at the same time being aware that we are thinking; like a witness of our own thinking process. We could be even repeating a mantra in the background.
This is actually what you do at the beginning of a sitting meditation, you become a witness of your thoughts without getting attached or identified with them. But this is already quite difficult, imagine if your thoughts required all your attention, for instance if you were trying to solve a business problem. Well, I guess the only way to find it out is to keep practicing.
What about my other questions?
We also came to the conclusion that the master is not just going to answer all our questions. We can find all our answers within ourselves, we just need to continue with our practice. Why shouldn't we trust our own selves to provide the answers? "The guru is within yourself". That's what the masters say. I recalled what a teacher had said during one of the lectures quoting Swami Veda: "My best students don't ask any questions. All their questions are resolved by doing their sadhana (spiritual practice)"
This doesn't means that Swami Veda doesn't answer his students questions, he does, but I think the lesson for me at that moment was to learn to listen to my inner guide and find my own answers through my practice.
A few days later while checking my twitter account I read a tweet that I had made a couple of days before my meeting with Swamiji. It was a quote from one of Swami Rama books: "If we ignore our inner teacher then a teacher outside will be of no use to us". I didn't make the connection at that moment but now it hits me in a even deeper level.
Then on another day during a lecture we came to the same questions and answer subject. The teacher started telling a story that Swami Veda had told himself.
There was a moment when Swami Veda had a lots of questions that he wanted to ask to his guru, Swami Rama. For some reason Swami Rama was sort of avoiding meeting him so the meeting was postpone for weeks, even months. Knowing that Swami Rama had little time Swami Veda wrote all his questions on paper and everyday he was reading them and trying to make them shorter and clearer. He did it for several months until finally Swami Rama called him and said "We can meet tomorrow". So when they finally met Swami Rama asked "Do you have any questions for me?". Swami Veda said "yes" and he took out his paper with all the questions. Swami Veda look at his questions and started to say to himself: "oh, this one I already know the answer; oh, this one is not relevant anymore; hmm this I don't need to ask" and so on. After a few seconds Swami Veda replied to Swami Rama "no swamiji, I don't have any questions".
I wonder how the original story sounded like.. :-) anyways... In my case my questions still remain unanswered, but I feel the answers will come soon. What is important is what I learned:
- Don't run here and there to find answers, just listen and trust your inner guide.
- Being present while mentally busy is possible only by constant and regular practice.